Interior Rendering

前一阵子的功课
这次自己做了
幸好出来的效果还不错

这是现实照片

这帮朋友做的
结果赶功课赶了三天三夜

Design Communication 的 perspective
我还是用了犯规的电脑

little talk by Kevin Mark Low

I hv been skipping classes for weeks...

no matter what

i still get back to uni to not to miss this golden apportunity - a lecture by Kevin Mark Low

im not a fans of him but i know that he is a great thinker/architect after the talk just now

i give him all my respect now...

before the talk get started i was wondered who is the man standing in front is the guy acquire respect from everyone

who comes to my mind were those wearing nice suit with tie

i was totally wrong

Kevin Mark Low dressed in T-shirt and Jeans with a pair of Camel-Active-Boots

he looks exactly like a plumbing technician

but who knows he is such a guy full with knowledge?

yup...a great person get respect from what he did...not how he looks like...

alright...what i had just being told in the one and a half hour lecture

is about Design and Styling

deeper into architecture...Content and Form...

as what he talked in the lecture shows that he prefer works with rich content than works with great form

i quite agree with his point of view...

yup as we v had being taught for years...we design for good function...not only good looking...

he said...many architects made mistake...their designs are imperfect as us human beings....

thats really true...

he said....people nowadays climb mountain to let the world to c them...but not to see the world...

in the other way...he gave a lot of examples...examples that i couldnt even rmb - people's name...

the only one i rmb is Steve Jobs...

to relate back to the topic...Steve Jobs is just a person great in marking and makes money...people who really design for the product no one knows...

one of the example is Compose and Disc Jockeying

creativity that works on invention or creativity to cut and paste

i cant really elaborate all the points well

but this short lecture really inspired me a lot...

well...get back to realistic...

get the shit done before i get barred...

Failure

I have a feeling

a feeling that im going to fail again...

A question comes to my mind today

what if i really fail again this time...

I could answer that very fast

im not going to study anymore

at least for now

what to do then? i will go to work first...

yea work at low pay

no one gonna looks good at u

even i dont look good at myself

so what

i can be forever alone

urghhh

fucked up life

damn

i duno whether im too weak to encounter problems

or too weak to handle pressure

or...just too bad in study...in time management...in whatever the course require

am i in the right field?

should i just leave and go for whatever job?

urghhh

gg

too many gg

too many late submission

These are what i did for the past few weeks

Both drawings also late submit
and im facing kena barred problem

Luckily got Panze to help me out of the rendering so i could submit this on time

Fuck this studio work i hv been dragging for 2 weeks...20% mark gone...gg

大哭

昨天
我放声大哭了
就是在我熬了三天三夜 功课却交不上的那一刻
崩溃了
那累积的压力 爆发了

为什么
我真的想要做好而已
我很努力地去做
熬夜很痛苦
可是到头来 我得来的是这样的对待


幸好那个下午
我遇见了两个人
Lawrence 还有Vincent
有些小聊 然后那种心情给朦过得去了

可是今天
我还是缺席了
整个晚上 我什么都赶不出来
跑到床里 逃避去了

输了
那一秒的决定 我彻底的输给了自己
回到以前的那种感觉
那种发现自己又要再次fail的感觉



不！
不能输！
我要弥补！
我不能放弃！


谢谢你
感谢天让我认识了你这位朋友

压力

压力 是自己给自己的

为什么今天的我

又再次感觉到那股压力

晚上驾车的路途中

我的泪流出来了

为什么

总是那么困难

无论怎样

我相信  我还能撑得住

我跌过很多次

也曾掉落到最低潮

这次  我不会允许自己再失败

坚持  坚持

再撑一会儿  总会挨过去

请

耐住寂寞

为梦想奋斗  是件开心的事

对吧

回学校开工去

3.34am

18.5.2013

话说

今天很压力

因为下个星期假期

可是还是有一堆功课要做

然后今天回学校做功课

碰上了毕业典礼

FB insta也看到很多人post照片

唉

还真的有压力 

我想到时候轮到我毕业

我会不会哭

因为经历的不是中学那样的考完试就毕业

6年？7年？

为了Architecture这张文凭  真花上我不少时间

好了

加油

"成功必须耐得住寂寞！"

这是我从书中看来的

=)

Week 7

两个星期又过去了

我做了什么？

除了忙 还是忙

忙学校的功课

B.Con过后

就是3DSMAX

好几年没用的software

动起来真的没有头绪

所以我找了白小姐室内设计师帮忙

感谢白小姐 

当我剩最后一晚做到发狂的时候  

她救了我一命

感谢她教了我不少

我才能把这个东西弄出来

当然 这是第一阶段

没有material的Modelling

接下来的rendering还是要找她教

是有点依赖 可是没办法 真的没有时间慢慢自己钻练

忙忘了comp app接着的周末

我们去了槟城Site visit

这次的site是一个坟场

基督教徒的坟场

说真的我真的第一次踏入基督教的坟场

第一次在里面走来走去
更荒唐的是 大家拿起相机这里拍那里拍
当然我也不例外
一直在别人墓前钻来钻去


不过Christian的cemetery真的很不一样
第二天的傍晚我为了补拍照片
一个人呆到了7点
当时所有的同学都走完了  剩我一个
特别的是
我一点也没有觉得怕
那里给我的感觉很慈祥 很宁静 serene peaceful
如果以后我葬在这种地方 应该很不错


然后整个槟城旅程真的有点显
学校完全没有安排我们早上班的去其他地方
3天2夜就只是看坟场 zzz
我们要去远一点吃好料也没办法
因为没有车


唯一有玩到的就是第一晚
原本是去club的最后换去Pub喝酒
最后还按摩了才回酒店


槟城回来后立刻又赶一份报告
我昨天也熬了一夜通宵
最后6个人一组的group work今天大功告成
虽然只有5个人在做东西啦


刚睡醒时已是晚上
想到我要买Premiere Pro的CD
所以就跑去了康乐pm
想一想  上一次去应该是两年前的事了
哦！对了 上个星期和芳雪吃过了早午餐
也是一样 事隔两年了
不过友谊这东西
真的是看心的
只要两个朋友合得来
有那份心存在
无论隔了多久才见一次
朋友的感觉都还会在



嗯
下个星期是sem break
就是说7个星期过去了
假期回来后 就剩下另一半的学期
虽说是放假
可是还是不能完全休息
因为假期回来那个星期
我就有两个assignment要交
唉 archi life


这几天超热的说
我每晚睡觉都像在gok sona~
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